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Burned Out

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I was typing this on my Facebook page but as it got longer, I realized this was more suited for the blog. Many people are struggling - no. They may not be depressed. No. It is not that they need 'help' the way you think of help. They may be burned out I know I am But can you hear yourself? Are you saying to me "maybe you overdid it Sandy?" I know my kids are. I know friends and friends' friends are. But how do you know? If I am still getting my job done, my kids' grades are great, and friends seem to be managing. How can they be burned out? If we give them a break, does that mean they will "NOT" be burned out? I just finished Rene Brown's spotify podcast on Burnout with Emily and Amelia Nagoski.  Here are my reflections.   I highly encourage you to listen to it. Are you feeling tired but you don't really know why because you haven't been 'doing' much? Are you feeling you you don't get much done? Are you feeling like nothi

Do I have Covid?

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Almost 20 days ago, after teaching online during the day, I began to feel a bit of a sore throat, of voice strain.  As a teacher, that is usually my body trying to shout to me and say "Stop Talking So Much" But I have a habit of ignoring my body's signals.  I hydrate a lot regularly and I sleep like a baby.  I tried to speak softly but when I speak like that, it-takes-a-lot-of-energy Yes, I know it might sound strange, but speaking softly takes a lot of energy and my overall energy level drops when I don't speaK! A few days pass, and I begin to drink more hot honey drinks and then that progressed to taking some cough drops while teaching. Hmm.  This happens often (as a teacher) but this time, my mind jumps to "Do I have Covid?" But I brush it aside.  I, alongside my entire family, hardly ever get out; to be honest, we don't even go out for walks as often as we should! But a few days passed and now the chest feels tight sometimes and I feel tired.  Then I

Easter Reflections: Mourning

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 I wasn't supposed to write anything today, but my mind keeps on wandering to what happened between the time Jesus dies and the time the women find that He is no longer dead. Today, my mom reminded me also that tomorrow, resurrection Sunday, happens to be the Chinese festival of Tomb sweeping. And today, I see that the covid-19 numbers continue to climb and the ICU's continue to see more and more people. It is easy to miss on all of this, but as I bring these to my consciousness, I actually see a lot of mourning, pain and death. The disciples just got the shock of their lives and I wondered if they are still in shock, a day after Jesus truly is dead.  Joseph of Arimathea truly took Jesus' body down and with Nicodemus, they embalm Jesus and they truly bury him. I have seen death in my life (see previous blog posts on death: Facing Death,   So this is love too , Head on , among others [search: death]) and I wonder if the disciples are still in shock.  Just a day ago they were

Easter Reflections: Why bother going to Gethsemane?

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  This morning I read what Jesus did with his disciples after their dinner.  We read how things got from bad to worse very quickly; so bad that it will lead Him ultimately to death. It is a journey of betrayal, hurt, loneliness, agony, pain, and separation. And it was GOOD, because that was the entire reason why Jesus came in the first place. But before moving onto all the events that mark the ultimate betrayal, hurt, loneliness and death, what catches my attention was Gethsemane. Dinner started well with the disciples.  They were probably still amazed a stranger let them use his house to prepare for the Passover dinner.  They were having a good time but then Jesus got 'weird' again and started telling them about betrayals that made no sense and departures that sounded so depressing ( "where I am going you cannot go").  And then Jesus starts washing their feet and telling them to love one another and follow His example. Some were probably listening more than others. N